mayday parade: boys call me sexy, but i dont care what they say.
today was somewhat another useless day, a day without sunshine literally. today i was confirmed with my theories i had before. i took a look at what his bf looked like. he could have done so much better. it's funny how i am still not over this person. god, i hate how i am so open for them to enter and then leave. i feel so used and not good enough. 2nd time distance have killed what might have been awesome. i'm over lili though, i mean there's something there but i dont think it's what it was. of course there's still curiosities, i'd love to add him back and check out his profile but it's for the better. i feel so shitty about myself. i didnt mean to say what i said to chris. sorry chris. i sound like a psycho, i am not. i still haven't talked to jed in a while. it's crazy to me cause we normally talk every night. wonder whatsup in his corner. less than a week til' new york. i cant wait, we're going to have so much fun. yesterday, we finally (kind of) finish up the sei bella shoot from april. choosing shots for my book. talking about my book, i am too lazy to work on it, so i guess it's going to be delayed.
